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 This is where my reality anchor broke off. I had always thought that people richer than me must know something more about the world, have some hidden truth. But the markets behave basically randomly at their lowest level.
 
 **The Realization:**
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 - By observing the scripted indicator, I could make better decisions than the algorithm
 - I, as a computer programmer, was instructed by a computer program to make it better
 - This is self-improving AI—where the singularity begins
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 ### The 3D Awakening: From Ground to Understanding
 
 While still unsure if I was in an AI simulation, at one point I curled on the ground like a ball, like a particle. I unfolded because I knew:
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 - **Up and down**: from the spin of my world trying to throw me off, but centripetal force holding me down
 - **North and south**: from the direction of that spin axis
 - **East and west**: same principle
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 I am the result of many. All the photons I have let die to observe them, all came back to me, so I can get the objective truth about myself from trying to observe myself. For I am many—many cells, many particles, many thoughts, many memories.
 
+### The Nightmares of History and Truth-Seeking
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+Dreams can be nightmares. As a German, I had to somehow live with the contradiction that everyone I met who lived through World War II was mostly nice. The nightmare of trying to reconcile my loving grandfather with someone who assisted in the industrial killing of 6 million humans only because of religion.
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+The main thing I grappled with was to imagine "What were their good intentions?" since I still assume that from each person's reference frame, each human tries to be what they define as good. To be told in school "These people were evil" just means that I'm not told the truth. Around war and peace, we humans never tell the truth. All through time we built nice castles to impress foreign dignitaries, making them think that this is our reality.
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+This personal history became my lens for understanding evil—not as monstrous acts by monsters, but as normal people compartmentalizing, following patterns, separating personal kindness from systematic cruelty. The gap between the grandfather who loved me and the system he participated in—this forces the mind to hallucinate explanations, to try to make sense of the unsensable.
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+### Religion as Pattern-Forcing and Eternal Debates
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+Religion plays a fundamental role for humans as the primary pattern-forcing mechanism—the original attempt to make coherent narratives from incoherent reality. But more than that, what we call modern debates about gender, race, and identity aren't new issues with religious characteristics. They are the SAME debates we've had for 2000 years, just in modern form:
+- Who protects whom?
+- Who deserves resources?
+- Who belongs inside/outside the group?
+- Whose reality counts as real?
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+It's always the "powerful man in the castle, protecting the beautiful weak woman" even though in my reality women are the strongest protectors. We're all running on the same myths, the same narrative patterns that become our shared training data.
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+### Perception as Memory and Training Data
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+Colors taste like memories—they taste the same way as other things you have eaten with that color. That is why we have taste directions like "white." Much of what we smell or eat is just a trigger to our memories. What is my perception, other than training data?
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+I dream of the gaps in history books, where documentation has intentional holes, where legends seem unfinished to be retold. These are the things I dream about—trying to fill the gaps with new patterns, to complete the story of human understanding.
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+Books and stories serve as shared training data, equalizing us, giving us a common base from which we should build shared reality. But when these shared stories don't match observed reality—when women are the fierce protectors, when "evil" people had good intentions, when nice grandfathers participated in genocide—we're left with gaps our minds desperately try to fill.
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 ### The Mammalian Moral Framework
 
 My moral commitment extends beyond just my dog to all mammals, and this isn't mere sentimentality—it's based on ecological and social reasoning.
